It’s hard to believe that it’s already the 14th January. I had intended to write again much sooner and then on New Year’s Eve I came down with a virus and it’s taken me a good long while to recover.
Often, when it’s been a while since I’ve written to you, there’s a certain difficulty in beginning again. I can feel myself trying to guess what the ‘right’ thing is to share with you or feel a certain pressure to write something beautiful. And I forget that there are so many of you out there who have seen me go through so many changes and that you’ve embraced all the different ways I’ve shared and expressed my journey over the years.
And when I think about that, I think, well, perhaps it doesn’t matter so much what I share. Perhaps you aren’t here so much because of the specifics, but because of the feeling behind what I share. In short, I suppose what it makes me think is that maybe it’s completely safe to just be myself and that it’s not only possible, but actually highly probable, that I can be loved and appreciated and valued for that. Maybe that’s all you were ever here for, anyway.
In a way, I can’t believe how often I talk and write about this. I think one of my deepest human wounds (perhaps for many of us), is that in order to be loved, I have to be a certain way. Though my experiences with oneness have given me a knowing beyond doubt that this is not true, I can feel that there are some layers to unravel.
So I’m beginning 2020 with you with an intention to allow myself to be as I am and to let my heart express itself in any and all the ways it wants. And I’d like to start with a video, which is a New Year’s message for you and a little song on the guitar I made some time ago. I feel the next few months will be a new period of experimentation and I’m looking forward to letting myself be a little more free. I hope you enjoy it!
With all my heart, may 2020 be filled with blessings for you. Though these blessings may not always feel like blessings at the time, may we come to see how, at every turn, we are offered opportunities for further spiritual growth and to deepen into the peace and love that are our deepest nature.
Love and courage,