Whenever I go for more than a week without writing to you (and to be honest even a week feels like too long), I feel disconnected from my true self.
It’s because in order to write and to share with you, I have to be in the process of going inwards and connecting with the deeper realms of life that so often get eclipsed by the frenetic pace of modern daily living. And so the act of writing and sharing with you is actually a huge part of what nourishes me. The less writing and sharing I do, the less nourished I feel.
These last ten days have been so filled with practical tasks, mostly related to the house, that I’ve found it a real challenge to make the space for connecting inwards. As a result, I feel somewhat discombobulated and have been getting increasingly cranky.
However, I have been working on something new over this time which I’m finally ready to share.
Since moving here last April, I’ve had a steadily growing desire to try and express myself and this journey through videos as well as writing and so I’ve finally gone ahead and made a start.
This was surprisingly tough for me. It’s not like I haven’t made videos before, but as I wrote about a few weeks ago in Accessing Possibility, I feel like I’ve been taking fewer and fewer healthy risks in life and have become far too comfortable for my own good.
So I made a video showing visually and through words what being in this house and in this place means to me right now and the journey I feel like I’m being called to through moving here.
You’ll see clips of what it’s been like here over the past weeks of winter and the first signs of spring, as well as lots of beautiful clips from last spring and summer when the garden was in full bloom.
I know so many of you who read my work are beautiful creative souls too and I know how hard it can sometimes be to get our work out in the world. So for the sake of encouragement, I want you to know that the voice of self-doubt has been excessively strong through the making and now sharing of this video and I have felt overwhelmed by my impossible standards of perfection and always wanting to be a master before I’ve even begun.
But today I’ll click publish anyway because ultimately there isn’t truly a choice. We either start imperfectly or we don’t start at all.
I really hope you enjoy this video. It feels nice to invite you a little more into my life.
Love and courage,