The question of life purpose has been my life obsession. And though there have been many connected obsessions, the question of life purpose has always been the core driver behind everything else.
My deep obsession for wanting to find an answer that felt true has led me on a journey bigger than I could have ever imagined. The question of life purpose was also what drove, in large part, my spiritual search, since no matter what I did on the external, I never seemed to feel truly happy inside and sensed there was some piece of vital information that I was missing.
My intuition wasn’t wrong and through my spiritual awakening experience in 2016 I learned that what I’d been longing for was a remembrance of who I really was, beyond the body, mind and all material things of this world. I came out of that experience with a clear understanding that my primary life purpose was to know the love that I am. In fact, that experience revealed to me that this is the primary life purpose for all of us.
It was also made clear to me through that experience that my secondary life purpose was to express that love in whatever ways were most natural and joyful to me in the outer world of form. The phrase “Love and do what you want” sums up the learning perfectly, though I don’t remember who that phrase came from (Ram Dass?).
The journey of outer life purpose has continued to fascinate me and I sense that it always will, since in the world of form we’re always learning, growing and evolving.
Over the past nine years since leaving my job I have read about, engaged in, and come across many different philosophies about outer life purpose. Some people believe that our life purpose is pre-written and our job is to find it. Some people believe that our life purpose isn’t pre-written and our job is to create it. Some people believe we don’t have a life purpose.
But for me, after all these years of questioning and exploring and experimenting and going down a thousand different rabbit holes, it’s something slightly different that feels most true for me. For me, the truest thing I can say is that my outer life purpose isn’t something I needed to find or create, it’s something I needed to admit and it’s something I need to keep admitting more deeply to myself so that I can in turn step into it more fully.
The realisation that you need to admit your life purpose is what happens to people who’ve always known somewhere inside themselves what they’re here for, even if you’ve had to go on a very roundabouts journey to wake up to what was always there waiting to be remembered.
But for people like us – the sensitive ones, the empaths, the intuitives, the healers, the creatives, the visionaries, the messengers – admitting your life purpose, even to yourself (and you are actually the most important person you need to admit it to) can be very tricky. Why? Well…
Because you feel arrogant when you admit your life purpose because it feels way bigger than you feel you are and you think, ‘who am I to do that?’
Because you worry you might not be up to your life purpose.
Because your life purpose doesn’t fit into a nice, neat, easily defined job role or title as currently expected and accepted by our culture.
Because you’re fearful of having to become more visible in the world, which your life purpose will demand. You’re going to have to keep stepping outside your comfort zone.
Because you don’t fully trust your intuition and you’re worried you made it all up in your head (this is a big one!)
Because you think you to need to be faultless and perfect in order to claim your life purpose. (No one is faultless or perfect in the material realm.)
Because you’re afraid of criticism. (This can’t be avoided.)
The most important thing is to keep listening to and grow the trust you have in your own intuition. The stronger this connection gets, the more fully you’ll be able to admit your purpose to yourself and take the action that it requires in the material world.
When you truly know that what you feel inside of you isn’t just your ‘silly imagination’ but your heart and intuition with an important message for you about your purpose in life, then it becomes easier to act and step forward, because you didn’t choose this, it chose you and your role is to fulfil your job spec, not just for your own happiness and fulfilment (although it will undoubtedly give you that), but for the good of all.
If you know what you’re here for but you just need to admit it a little more deeply to yourself, I hope this will give you the encouragement you need today. Go forth and shine you love-light!
Love and courage,