There was a time when it was so much easier to do things I didn’t really want to do.
It was easier to say yes to a social event when I knew I’d much rather spend time in nature or simply at home alone. It was easier to do work I didn’t really want to do because it made rational sense. It was easier to keep being friends with people I didn’t really want to be friends with because I couldn’t bear the thought of someone thinking I wasn’t nice. It was easier to pretend I liked things I didn’t really like because fitting in was preferable to standing out. It was easier to pretend I thought things I didn’t really think because I was afraid of being ridiculed or rejected.
Now, with every day that passes, I look in the rearview mirror and see those days fading further into the distance.
It’s harder and harder (impossible in some areas) to do anything that isn’t a true yes for my soul.
It’s like this for many of us at the moment and I want you to know – I really want you to know – you’re not alone.
If you can’t bring yourself to do work that doesn’t make your heart sing, even though you ‘really need the money’, you’re not lazy and you’re not irresponsible.
If you’d rather spend time in nature or sit meditating or plant potatoes than go to the pub or a party or watch TV, then you’re not ‘weird’.
If you can’t bring yourself to keep being friends with someone when your heart simply isn’t in it, you’re not mean or horrible.
If you can’t bring yourself to pretend to like things or think things you don’t like or think, it doesn’t mean you’re being unnecessarily difficult or opinionated.
As far as I can see from my own experience and the conversations and interactions I’ve been having lately, we’re done trying to fit in with the superficial society we’ve created. It’s becoming harder and harder for more and more people to keep on keeping on. We know that this isn’t the way life has to be and the voice of our souls is rising and becoming clearer.
Are we living through a challenging time? Yes, we are. It’s a time of such immense transition. So much of what we’re used to no longer works. More and more people are seeing through the lie of materialism and growth and more and more people are turning inwards to hear the messages that arise in the silence and the stillness.
We have to remember we’re not alone. When we take our struggles in isolation it’s too easy to think there’s something wrong with us. But when we connect into messages of others experiencing what we are experiencing, we can see our struggles within a bigger context of a movement towards a more beautiful world. This gives us faith and strength to continue on our path and to trust what we are feeling.
You are not alone. Please remember this.
Love and courage,
Leah
